That's right folks, I'm hanging up my stirrup socks and trading them in for legal documents and a home study.
You will now likely only be getting obsessive, over analyzed, over researched posts on adoption from now on (I might still sprinkle in a few IF topics as I wean from them). We have decided to stop treatments. We do have two embryos left and will reconsider treatments again in a year or two. We still have our WTF appointment this Friday where I'll likely just pay in advance to have our embies stored there and be on my merry way.
It's bittersweet, really, leaving the IF world behind. Then again, I don't know if I'll ever leave this world. I'll always be part of this silent (but growing louder!) sorority. Whether we have a child or not, I'll always be infertile. I'll always carry this struggle and a heavy heart for those still struggling.
I was anticipating this decision being much more difficult than it actually was. For the first time in almost 6 months I'm actually happy. I'm actually looking forward to the next steps, I don't dread the next phone call, I don't dread the next appointment, I'm actually optimistic. I know it won't be easy, I know it will be hard, but I also know that I'm seeing a light at the end of this dark and cold tunnel.
DH and I are really interested in adopting, so I look forward to reading your posts about that process. Best of luck!
ReplyDeleteIt fills my heart with joy to see you write the words "I am happy. I am optimistic." I'm happy and optimistic for you as you move ahead with adoption! I follow a Blog "wishing, Hoping, Praying" of one of our former IF'er who's adopted baby girl was born a few months ago if you want to check that out. It happened really fast for them. I wish you similar luck!
ReplyDeleteI'll be looking for that blog Kati, thanks <3
DeleteIt sounds like you are in a good place right now. I look forward to learning about the adoption process with you. I'm not sure where our journey is going to take us, but adoption is a possibility and something I know *nothing* about. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteThanks guys!
ReplyDeleteThis seriously makes me happy Slick. Because although it's a whole new world with lots of new rules and lingo, at the end of the adoption road there IS a baby! :) Up until Friday, I really thought that we were going to be diving into adoption ourselves, so I'm really looking forward to seeing what your journey is like. ::big hug::
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