Cyst Update :)

I went in today for my cyst check and it's now 1/3 of the size it was! Woot woot! So what this means is that as long as my E2 levels come back normal today then I can come off bcp and start my Follistim injects on CD2!! 

Ahhhhhhhhhh! I'm so excited! 

Babywise

Yes, I know I'm not pregnant or a mom. So you might ask, "Why are you writing about this?" Well, that's because I feel strongly about it and I think this book is mostly a load of crap and at the light end of the spectrum ok information that needs to be taken with a grain of salt. Yes, I know I'm not a mom/not an expectant mom however, I was forced to read this load of crap book in one of my childhood development classes and then write a paper on it. It was so difficult to not let my emotions and true feelings come out in that paper. 


This blogger: http://poshtopush.blogspot.com/2011/06/my-beef-with-babywise.html said what I wanted to say. If you're a pro-babywiser, please know that I understand that every baby is different and that this method might work for you. And if it does/did, then bravo! you are a lucky one that has a baby that comes out of your vag already with a schedule (kidding, kind of - I know that ANY type of sleep training is difficult). But please take this NON-scientifically based/one man's opinion/book and all it's information with caution and modify to your child's and your needs. The people that I am really speaking to are the one's who take Ezzo's word as the ONLY word and do exactly what the book says.


So, I know some of you might be rolling your eyes at me for writing this and some of you might agree. Anyway, I'm stepping off my soapbox now and I hope y'all have a wonderful Sunday!

Thoughts during Father's Day Mass

Yesterday we went to mass with my sister and 1 year old niece. Since my adorable Goddaughter is completely into EVERYTHING now and likes to loudly sing along with the hymns, we thought it best to sit in the crying room. Mr.Slick and I were sitting there listening to mass and entertaining my niece since my pregnant sister can't really pick her up due to complications (yes my sister is pregnant with another while her 1st born is just a year - she had a very difficult pregnancy and will again but I digress...). 


So anyway, we were sitting there playing with my niece and there are babies laughing, climbing and crying all around us and my my heart was aching through their laughs and cries. Mr. Slick and I could feel the tension between us and we knew we were thinking the same thing. During mass, while the priest was commenting on all the wonderful fathers and fathers to be in the parish, I couldn't help but think about how if we weren't plagued with infertility we could have a 9 month old sitting there with us and he could be the proud papa during his first Father's Day mass. We could be the embarrassed parents prying our child's sticky fingers from the pew in front of us as we carry the squealing babe to the cry room or if even necessary, outside. How I wish we could suffer such wonderful embarrassment.  


Yesterday was not his Father's Day but perhaps next year he will be able to sit proudly and stand when all the other fathers are recognized on their special day too.

Something a little bit different...An insurance RAVE!

So when I called to inquire about my Rx for Clomid 6ish weeks ago, I was informed by my pharmacy that it was NOT covered. I explained that according to the paperwork I had FROM the ins. company that it WAS covered. They then explained that it was only covered at 25mg, not at 100mg like I was prescribed. Well, eff you insurance! I called the company and they confirmed this. Booooo to you!

So anyway, when we decided to move on to FSH injects this cycle+trigger+progesterone supplements I figured these wouldn't be covered. I thought of the three of those that maaaaybe the progesterone would be covered. The Follistim (FSH) was going to run us about $450 out of pocket, the trigger was going to be about $90 OOP and the progesterone was going to be about $225 OOP.

Well ladies and gents...IT'S ALL COVERED! I only have to pay a total of $95!!! That's $25 copays for two of them and a $45 copay for the third. I want to send my insurance company a love letter right now.

Things are starting to look up :)

Clomid didn't work but it's still fvcking with me...

I went in this morning for my baseline u/s for our first injects cycle. I was so hopeful. Maybe this would be our cycle. Maybe I'd actually ovulate for the second time in 18 months and actually give us a chance at conceiving. Maybe, just maybe, this would end our struggling.

Wrong.

Baseline u/s indicated a huge fvcking cyst on my left ovary. Why thank you Clomid, not only did you NOT do a fvcking thing to help me ovulate, to help me get pregnant. But you leave this lovely present behind. So, now we're probably going to be cancelling this cycle also.

And really and truly, we're running out of time. I used all my days at work this past school year so I don't have any saved up for this coming school year. We were planning on getting in two, maybe three, cycles in this summer. But from the looks of it, we might not even get one. Which means we'd have to put treatments on hold until Christmas time or next summer. Unless my RE's office magically makes longer hours (just for me!) so I can do all my appointments after school.

Mr.Slick even asked if maybe this was God's way of saying we shouldn't have kids. He keeps putting up these road blocks and we keep maneuvering around them. After talking, we decided that's not what God wants and that he wants us to have kids. But I'm seriously questioning myself a lot lately. 

Meds & Eggs

Coincidence? I think not. 

However, it does seem slightly strange to have medications in my fridge that cost MORE than the actual fridge...